I was not even 18

Some nostalgia some Vodka  and intense love making

I felt having gone back into 30 years old past

I felt him the same as I felt then in fantasies   

I was not even eighteen 

when I saw him first flirting with girls in a subtle way

then I realized the girls were flirting not he

I felt the penetrating glaze of the looks of his eyes

then I realized he was not even looking at me

yet I felt a unique sensation between my thighs

and heavenly when he held me by he shoulder

I feared he may put his hands in my skirts

but that was my imagination

but would come every night in my fantasies

and would make intense love

I knew I was in love

It was 30 years ago when I was not even eighteen.